Today was a rough day for us. At about 430 this morning both of my children woke up. I couldn't tell you why. Max always wakes up so that is nothing new, but Jaden usually sleeps 10 plus hours a night. Not last night so of course being the sucker I am for that gorgeous face I let her climb in bed with me. Then we end up getting up late because mommy is so tired. Baby duty every night and he woke up twice last night not his usual 1 time. I can't remember the last time I got a full night of uninterrupted sleep. Its times like these I wish my husband was home. Anyways so we wake up late and Jaden just seems in a funk. She is eating breakfast slow, getting dressed slow, putting on her shoes slow. I asked her what is wrong and she says " I miss my daddy." My heart is breaking by this time and she asks "mommy can you just stay home with me today?' After my heartbreaks the second time I explain that I can't and we set off for the baby sitter's house. Thank goodness there are other kids there she was so happy to be able to play we didn't have our usual crying fit that happens when mommy leaves for work. Thankfully work made my day go fast, but after was a nightmare. I had to pick up Jaden's Halloween costume ( after 8 thousands ideas for a costume she finally picks Snow white)
I can't wait to take her trick or treating, I just hope it warms back up a bit or we will be going out in our parkas lol. So I get the costume and I forget that today is the day I pay the baby sitter. I get in my car thinking I gotta stop and get cash and low and behold someone has literally siphoned the gas out of my tank. I just put in 30 dollars yesterday . I wanted to cry. So now I have to stop get gas again grab cash and oh yeah Max is out of formula! By the time I get to the sitter I am 30 min late. Thankfully she didn't care I think she was just happy to be paid. I grab the kiddos and pile them into the car. Jaden immediately is asking questions about my husband. I told her that I got pictures that someone sent me (really they are on his groups facebook page) and I would show them to her when I get home. She knows Daddy left for the Army I just thinks she wants to make sure that still the situation so she asks me "where is daddy? I miss him and he is never home!" (heart breaking again) I explain he's in the army and has to do some very important training and this is where it hits me how upset she truly is he's gone. She tells me " Daddy is in the Army and is never coming home for me" at this point she starts balling. My heart has now been shattered. How could she ever think daddy wasn't coming back for her. At this point I want to cry with her. I told her of course your Daddy is coming home for you. He will be here for Christmas. I also told her we will get to go see him before Christmas and that he will look a little different, but that he can't wait to see her. This got her to calm down and finally she says Mommy can I draw daddy a picture and send it to the army. Just like that she's happy again. We got home I showed her all the pictures of Alpha CO including the ones of her dad and she is on cloud nine the rest of the night. She also drew him 3 pictures of which she put in the scanner so they could be sent. LOL We send pictures to my grandmother this way so now she thinks that how we send them to everyone. So precious. 57 more days till we get to see him.
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